untitled...

This past few days, the thought of writing a story bothers me. But then, I cannot think of an idea of what would be my story's title and a story line. Maybe someday at sometime, the idea would just pop in my mind. I hope it won't slip away because every time I have the idea, there's no computer or internet connection near me that won't cost me a penny and I still don't a portable pc on my lap. It's only at home where I can stare and think in front of my pc. Unfortunately, the ideas I had had already slipped away from my mind the moment I plan to enter it here on my blog. Writing it on a piece of paper can't work for me. Ugh...

To relieve myself from those wasted ideas I just think that those were not meant to be written or maybe it's not the right time to write about it. Hahaha!! Enough for my "untitled story" thingy.

I just finished watching Strawberry Panic. Technically, the story was not bad although it is about lesbian love (close-minded people, better get out of here!!). It's unique and features some sweet scenes. Awwww!! ~.~ Kawaii!!

Talking about lesbian movies or anime series, I think such genres are just for open minded people. It doesn't mean that if you're watching such genres you're a lesbian or bi. So stereotypical!! Such story lines are unique and the ideas are not bad! Moreover, it reflects the cultural background of the author or even the country itself.

Jumping to the topic about homosexual love, I think such love is a matter of friendship. It's as simple as that. From the start of time, such relationship is forbidden. Maybe because of norms and standard that was established socially. It imprisoned people to express their love to the same sex. Furthermore, I think such love is not genuine. No offense but maybe it's just a way of satisfying one's self to security and love, and the desire to have someone to protect and be loyal with. Things you will not get from a simple friendship. Things you'll easily get from a heterosexual relationship. I can say it's in the borderline between having a friend and a girlfriend or boyfriend. Because it is only in heterosexual relationship genuine love can be felt. There are a lot of things heterosexual love can provide. Far more different from homosexual relationship. However, because of the same norms and standards people became aggressive. Their desire to express their love flamed more brighter that they were able to climb the "borderline". It's human nature to love. People cannot deny it. That's why they unconsciously express their love to people even if it is deviant. A simple friendship that became a source of strength and inspiration to each member.

By the way, I'm just trying not to enslave myself to the norms these society had established. I remembered Morrie Schwartz told that it you don't like one culture, then don't buy it. Ciao!

PS:
Watch Strawberry Panic so you'll have a better idea! :D

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"Listen to the stars! They're shouting your name....Can't you hear them."

Responsibility... responsibility... responsibility... When will such things end? Unfortunately, wala ng katapusan ang mga bagay na mga ito. It's part of being human. How 'bout obligations?! Well, most of the time laging magkasama ang responsibilidad at obligasyon. If you want to be responsible enough then do your obligations plus of course, initiative. What if hindi mo alam kung anong responsibilidad mo at kung hanggang saan ang sakop nito?! Diba mahirap?!

Sa friendship, ang pinakauna kong gustong malaman ay kung ano ang mga limits ko bilang kaibigan? What should I do? What are you expecting me to do for you? What are the things I need to know? What are the things I don't need to know? Kulang na lang maging parang robot ako... Ewan ko! Takot lang kasi ako! I know it's not right! Kaso hindi ko talaga maintindihan... Ayoko lang mawalan...